02.24.06
Portrait
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Originally uploaded by Je suis sophie.
Prise par Dylan par suprise un soir comme ca sur notre canape. C’est beau non ?
02.13.06
The impossible quest
Yesterday, Dylan and I commented about how having a child really causes you to feel emotions that you would otherwise never have had a chance to experience. It sounds and is completely cliche but there is really no other way to say it. Although friends had told us about it, there is really no way to be prepared for it. In my case, it is not so much the nature of the emotions as the amount of them that has been a suprise. I’m not used to being overwhelmed like that. I’m a French engineer for God’s sake, you can’t really be more cartesian than that, can you?
Emotions have been running particularly high lately as I am tackling the issue of finding a day care solution for Evelyne. All parents I talk with confirm that this is one of the most difficult things parents face. It’s loaded with issues of guilt (shouldn’t I be taking care of her), of fear (what if something happened?), of resentment, and many more too numerous and complex to name. Amid the confusion, one thing stands out clearly, I do want to work part-time only to make sure I can spend some time with Evelyne while she is still young. I would really miss her if I were to work full-time now. Deciding to work 3 days a week only really helped me focus my search for the perfect caregiver. But there is so much more to decide! The most frustrating is that there is no central place for recommendations or comparison of child care providers in San Francisco. Hard to believe in a place like San Francisco! There is really little available on the Internet for this. Tough for me who relies so much on this medium for…well everything now. I have to do what everyone does, which is to visit a ton of places and compare. I guess it comes down more or less to a gut feeling in the end. That’s what all sites/advisors are saying. It is such an un-easy experience for me. Ugh… I hate it.