11.22.05
Posted in Evelyne at 8:03 pm by admin
Motherhood is about wanting one thing and its exact opposite at the same time. I feel constantly pulled between two extremes. I am very curious to see Evelyne grow and learn new things, yet I am sad to already see her change and sometimes wish she would stay this small. I want her to be awake and active but when she is I wish I could just put her down to sleep and do other things. I want her to develop her individuality but I want her to take it all from me. I hate that I have to wake her up every three hours to feed her (she still doesn’t let us know systematically when she’s hungry) but when she does signal hunger I hate the fact that I am bound to her schedule.
How does anyone remain sane under these conditions???
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11.08.05
Posted in Evelyne at 10:30 pm by admin
My daughter is two weeks old today. [ It's just so incredible to be able to write this sentence :-)].
Evelyne Constance Genevieve Henry was born October 25 at 2:54am, PST. She was 5 lbs 6oz (or 2.450 kg) and 18 inches long, and that’s 5lbs 6oz and 18 inches of cuteness. We just can’t keep our eyes off of her. We keep cooing and repeating ad nauseam “she’s so cute”.
Evelyne came into this life very fast (less than 2 hours of labor) and very early and I think it’s already a sign of her personality. She came so fast that her dad couldn’t even make it to the hospital in time and he walked in the room when she was a few minutes old, laying on me.
The birth was an extraordinary experience. Although I wasn’t planning on a natural birth, it was just to precipitous for the nurses to have time to give me an epidural or any pain killers. After the birth, I felt strangely one with all the women of the world who give birth naturally. It’s been a very interesting experience for me. I don’t consider myself a touchy feely person, I don’t usually talk about feminity and the power of being a woman, but the birth and the parenting thing bring out new feelings and intuitions in me that I didn’t know I had. In the process of giving birth to a child I gave birth to a new me. Actually, new isn’t exact. It’s old me, but with a whole new side of me unleashed. Where I was afraid that becoming a mother would overcome my personality and take over who I really am, I am instead discovering that motherhood was in me and it just needed to be “revealed” (as in the photographic process). I am relishing it. I feel 200% me. I am “ehanced Sophie” as Dylan puts it.
About Evelyne I can only say clichés. She’s so cute 
(OK you got that). She’s all potential right now and it’s amazingly exciting to think of what she COULD do.
Last but not least also is Dylan, the final element in our new trinity. It has been wonderful to see him grow from husband to father.
There is so much more to say. I’ll keep it for upcoming posts and will make sure to write before another two weeks go by.
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